This weekend I had the opportunity to experience two completely different worlds. My worlds. Up until about four years ago I allowed one to happen, or "forced it to happen",seems a better choice of words. The other one is relatively recent, and I am incredibly proud that I created it with my own conscious mind. It flows naturally, easily.
In one 24 hour day, experiences separated by merely morning and afternoon, with only the simplest words, and person's present, I was taken back to my past, and propelled into my future. I was also given the gift of acknowledging my present. Now, to some, this would be an experience of complete stress. This complex situation bringing with it emotional confusion, doubt, angst, possibly a smidgen of fear, and sadness. For me?
Well, as the slightly odd duck I pride myself on being.........I LAUGHED. Literally. I laughed in my car. I laughed while walking. I laughed while replaying the conversations of the day in my mind. In the most comedic portion of that 24 hours, I laughed In the face of a person that, at many points in my past, I was afraid of. I was given the opportunity to see how what most refer to as karma, and I as the universe, truly brings us everything we ask for. What we think, or I should say how we think, IS a direct reflection of the lives we live.
As I stood in front of person #1 in the morning hours, having a conversation that kept taking turns in various different directions, the past 12-13 years flashed through my brain like a cartoon flipbook. As I was listening to the conversation I was participating in, almost as a third person, I saw how vastly different my world is now. How many degrees of difference there is between the world I used to live in, including the people, and the one I live in now. My present being. My natural state. As the conversation continued, questions were presented by the other party that prompted my brain to ask itself if, I would in fact, ever consider, or had ever considered, moving back to that world?
My brain calmly and lovingly asked "Jess, how about it? What do you think? Do you want to come back?" while almost simultaneously, and with full assurance, I answered with a quick, and distinguishable "Oh you silly silly girl.....NOOOOO WAY. Are you kidding me? Give up all this?!"
Self love is one of the simplest, and least complicated ways to make a decision. See, in my situation, my quick and almost automatic response, came from a place of loving myself so much, that I will never again willingly put my beautiful soul into a situation that would give me anything less than 110% happiness. I will not walk into any situation that does not provide the tools for positive personal growth and learning. When you learn to love yourself completely, you begin to see how every word, situation, and person, will add or subtract, from your life. And you are given the inner power to say no. Saying no is not a sign of weakness, but rather of empowerment. Being able to confidently advocate for yourself allows you to be in control of your life, and what is brought into it. What a gift this is! I see people, on a regular basis, making decisions based on "what should be" or "what is normal" or, most destructively, what other people think. These factors remove self love from the equation. If you are asking others to make a decision for you, which is exactly what those factors are doing, you are telling your brain that you do not trust it enough, or love yourself enough, to know what is right for you. Now think of the domino effect of this for a minute.....when you ask others, or their influences, to choose your life, you are bringing all of their personal choices onto your path in both the good and the less than desirable. You are intertwining their lives, their mother's lives, their uncle's lives, with yours. What if their decisions were not based in self love? Not to mention that they are different from you; different interests, goals etc...So in essence, you are living someone else's life. Because you didn't love, or trust yourself enough to create your universe unique to your soul. Who YOU are. What YOUR life should be. You are an individual, and should treat your path as such. As a treasure that you can make brighter by adding more gold (or purple sparklies in my case) along the way.
In the latter half of my 24 hour day, in a completely different environment, with people I have chosen to surround myself with, I was routed in my present, as well as given a glimpse of my future. As I was standing there celebrating a best friend's graduation from college, I saw, once again, how different my world is now. Even compared to a short four years ago, the difference is astronomical. If you had seen the transformation, as some of my close friends did, you might say I am a completely different person. It is virtually impossible to see any of the past me, in the new me.
As the celebration carried into the evening hours I became quiet. I sat there warming my feet by the fire, watching the people I love, laughing and enjoying the euphoric atmosphere, I couldn't help but become overwhelmed by all the beauty I have in my life. I was able to see the differences so clearly, almost as if they were screaming at me "Hey beautiful! Look at what you've accomplished. This is some really good stuff!".......Surrounded by good friends, happiness, and the sense of being part of something bigger than me....I felt complete. Not once during the second half of my day did I doubt where I was, who I was, or the genuine love of the people I was with. In all of my friendships, I am important to these people, and they, in turn, are incredibly important to me. In my present day, my everyday, I am, and always will be, completely and honestly accepted for the person I am. I am 100% confident that as I grow and change, I will be seen as a beautiful spirit who continues to fly......all while knowing I am supported, encouraged, and loved, by the person's I choose to keep in my life. One's that add to my path and accept my unique spirit.......those who embrace my individuality, as they have embraced theirs. There is no jealousy, anger, hatred, distrust or malice in my new world. Those who love themselves fully, which creates the ability for us to love, and accept, each other as individuals.What we bring to these friendships, our personalities, enhance each others lives without taking anything away.
In the course of 24 hours, I experienced my past, present, and future. I was able to see, with open eyes, how I removed myself from an unnatural world, and changed my life into one that fits my unique nature. My days are filled with new colorful doors opening on a daily basis, endless opportunity, and lot's of love.The two worlds, my past and present lives, are like alternate universes. I wanted to become true to myself so I asked the universe for what I wanted.....and it continues to appear.
So I ask you this one question.......have you ever considered reconciliation?
Sending you peace,
I was in what appeared to be the
jungle. The leaves were different
shades of green and they were thick and overgrown. It felt difficult to make my way through- which is when I
realized that I was trying to make my
way through this overgrown jungle.
It felt like I was searching for something … or someone.
I made my way to the end of the
trees and found myself on a beach.
Immediately it was as if someone zoomed in on me and I felt an
overwhelming feeling of terror run over my body as I realized I was alone; I
was alone on this island.
I asked without using words, “Are
they coming?” It didn’t feel
right, “Is HE coming?”
The knowing through my body said, “No
one is coming. YOU have to get
yourself off of this island.” Then
it began to fast forward…
“YOU have to get off this
island. YOU made it through
the jungle and must now bring your story for people to hear. YOU have to do it… you have to build a
I then saw the pictures quickly speed
up. It was as though I was looking
at one of those flip books that shows movement with each page so that when you
flip the pages the picture moves.
The pictures were progressing- quickly.
I saw me with a tree trunk. It seemed like I was carving it or
doing something to make a boat. I
didn’t think about the fact that I have no idea HOW to build a boat or that I
have no experience in boat building, but I was feverishly building a boat.
The pictures continued to flip and
then I was in the boat, paddling strong and hard. I was in the very blue ocean and I could feel the wind
in my wild hair. I was so focused and so connected. I felt the knowing again and knew it
was alright. Everything was
alright. I was off the island.
The time has come.
The life I was living and the life I’ve dreamed of living are colliding
now more and more. I have been my
very best client. The creator in
me is constantly hungry and the visualizations I have been feeding it are
actually being created. But it’s
not like just creating the picture- it’s more like you step INTO the
picture. You imagine what it LOOKS
like. Then you imagine what it FEELS
like. And then you practice. THAT’S IT.
That’s it because all of a sudden you find yourself in a place
that the two get glued together so well that you find yourself in that
vibration even longer. And then
even longer until it gets flipped and you experience THAT more positive
vibration and existence more than the you that just imagined it.
Want to try it out? Want to see if it works? Doing this allows you to imagine even BIGGER. To see past whatever limitation you
find as you proceed through your journey.
And you will find them- your limitations. A very good friend of mine recently asked the question, “If
there was no fear how would it be” and it hit something in me. It helped me to identify that all of my
limitations are anchored by fear.
How about you? Think about
what you tell yourself that keeps you held back from progressing in some way…
what is your excuse? Once you get
that it should be easier to find what fear it is connected to.
Once you find the fear anchor, make peace with it. Contemplate whether it is a truth you
need to still believe and hold on to.
If it is not, accept that it may have been necessary to get you through
a period in your life but it is no longer needed.
And then do something different. Change YOUR role in that interaction. Say something different. Do something different. We are responsible for our output. If that is true, readjust your position
if needed and watch the outcome.
You will notice something positive if you provide and connect with
|Busy Busy Busy... I have been feeling the momentum pick up on so many of the projects and collaborations that have been in the works. This week two of them are finally being presented and I am SOO excited!
Sunday was the first of a new children's series of workshops I am teaching at The Tree of Health Center. It's called Happy Thinking for kids and it was better than I had expected. I structured the class to allow kids the opportunity to connect words and feelings. We talked about how words can be used to make others feel good or bad. We spoke about how the same words can make us feel the same when we use them on ourselves. It was so fabulous to see them make the connection. We followed up the discussion with some guided visualization. They visited a wonderfully happy place in their imagination... and then they drew pictures of the places they imagined in their minds... their happy places.
The pictures were so amazing. They explained to me what they were and how they felt. It confirmed for me how important a workshop like this is... even the grown ups need this class... happy thinking. I am so excited to do this one again on Thursday. I am hoping to see many children and even their parents there.
At the end of the week, I am introducing Conscious Style at The Tree of Health Center. This is going to be an awesome evening- a girls night out where we review your individual style. I have decided to use both my years of experience and passion in the beauty industry, with my years and passion coaching with guided visualization and hypnotic progression. I am combining my skills to help girls and women see how they want to be and I am giving the tools to help them become it. How cool is THAT??
What am I doing? People ask me regularly how I can be so positive. I want to suggest that you begin the day by giving gratitude. I do mot get out of bed before naming 10 things I am grateful for. I do it with my daughter- we take turns. It is something we started doing when things were tough. It was my way of setting the intention and starting my day in a positive vibration. Try it.
We really can have be or do what we desire. We really are creating our future right this moment. Understand your value in the world and be the best you can be. With gratitude and Much Love.
Today is the 30th day of my mental food challenge. It has been 30 days of no chewing. No anything to ingest except fresh vegetables and a few fruits- juiced and water in between. I did it. Wow.
I had never juiced before. I quite frankly thought juicing was something reserved for religious events and health freaks. But a few weeks ago I was drawn to the movie Fat , Sick and nearly DEAD. I highly recommend it. I found such inspiration from that movie that I decided to try it myself- to fast. The main character in the movie, Joe, beautifully demonstrated what the foods we eat are doing to us and how we can CHANGE our bodies and our HEALTH by changing the foods we eat. I learned a great deal. As a matter of fact, I watched that movie at least 20 times before beginning my fast.
After being inspired I devised my plan. I asked my doctor if I could fast for 10 days. He told me that if I was going to do it that I should do it for 30 and so it began...
For me, this past 30 days was not about losing weight. For me it was about redesigning my life. Truth be told, in 2007 my world was flipped upside down. Everything that I had and everything that I knew as truth had changed in a split second. I was left devastated, mentally, spiritually, financially and physically.
It was just me and my daughter and I had to find our way. So every day I put a smile on and every night I would cry and eat. Yes, I said it, I would just cry and eat and I did it for two years straight. I did that until I began learning the power of my own brain. I studied and learned how connections are made and how to change how we think. I started using that information to put our lives back together. I was completely focused on getting us to a better place and I knew I could do it by becoming conscious of what and HOW I was thinking. I also knew I had to work on my unconscious programming to get there.
Since that time I can say I have found a way of experiencing life with a great appreciation and with great love. I have grown spiritually, mentally and live a life honestly devoted to helping others find that same spark that shifted it all for me. The only problem is that those two years of what I call "crisis behavior" led to some very bad habits.
As I devoted so much time and effort into growing stronger and stronger I realized that those old crisis habits were in my way of living the life that I am really designing. I had to do something about that and since I have already seen first hand how to make positive change happen. it was time for me to conquer and reprogram those learned eating habits. You see, I am not in crisis anymore. I am in quite the opposite of crisis so I had to change. I wanted my behaviors to match my dreams because there is nothing in my way... there are no more butts about it (had to sorry ; ))
So when I saw this movie I decided that I want to do this. To make it most extreme I decided to add some other rules for myself like NO CHEWING. I wanted to break my behaviors. I wanted to break my habits. I wanted to start all over and do it healthier. I wanted to become a healthy role model for my beautiful and loving daughter, so I did.
It was not fun. I became aware of the habits I created that I DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE I HAD. Then I went through the pain and anger and sadness I had stuffed down with all that food. And you know what was on the other side of that? Nothing but love.
And that is what I am radiating today, nothing but love. Love for everything that has brought me to this very moment. The skinny and the fat, the sad and the happy, the rich and the poor... I am grateful for it all as I continue my journey now. And I am grateful to you for reading this. Thank you for your part in my journey. Much Love.
so today’s the day!! To be more
exact, today is the Month!! I am
making my health a priority and decided to seek drastic measures… so today is
the first day of my 30-day fast.
the next 30 days I will forgo chewing.
I will be juicing vegetables and fruits to acquire necessary
nutrients. My intention is to
break my unhealthy programmed eating and lifestyle habits that once helped me
through a hard time. I have no
need for them any longer. I seek
healthy living now. And today I
celebrate the opportunity to do just that.
preparation for today and this month’s transformation I have been working on
the mental programming. It has
been working better than I thought.
I have begun to really have no desire for the foods that provide little
or no nutritional value.
must admit I was a little surprised at how easy it was to begin the
re-programming. I must also admit
that it got in the way of my last weekend to bid farewell to those foods that
once brought me comfort. I wanted
to eat them for one last time… I wanted to give them a proper goodbye. I wanted to thank them for helping me
through a once difficult time in my life and explain that I no longer needed
their help. I needed to break up
with the food that had become a bad relationship.
my brain became my biggest supporter.
Every food I attempted to eat was met with distaste. Pizza tasted sour. Chinese was super salty. Fast food? Had to get it out of my car because the smell made breathing
difficult (I can actually smell it as I write this- ewwwww).
farewell feast did not go as planned but I am even more excited and confident
in my decision to embark on this fast.
I have never felt more ready for anything. I am wide open to this healthy transformation.
will I do it? Quite frankly I will be using everything I have learned about the
brain and programming. I have
never juiced (seriously anyway).
This program for me is a mental transformation. The fast is just how I intend to break
my barriers… my old thinking. It
just doesn’t work for me anymore.
I have created a different life and the abuse of food and lack of love
for myself isn’t a part of what I have created… so, no food. No chewing. I will be juicing vegetables and fruit and drinking water in
between. I am even getting blood
work every 10 days to see how my body changes. I AM SOOO EXCITED!
am prepared for the detox. I am
prepared for the social challenges.
I will be mediating and practicing self-hypnosis. I am in the vibration of my healthy
self and am attracting such.
with my morning meditation complete and my gratitude intensified, I am headed
for the juicer. I appreciate your
support. Sending Love.
I want to discuss energy. A while back I use to play with the idea of it- I imagined it radiating from me like a tutu. If I was in a good vibe it would be flowy or fluffy, maybe soft pink or white...sometimes if I was angered or upset it would look like sharp black spikes shooting out from all around me.
I would go to the grocery store and play with energy. I would stand at the end of an aisle and look at the people shopping on that aisle as I'd make mine very strong. I would feel and imagine positive rays shooting out from me and then I would walk down the aisle pretty slowly.
The experience was so amazing. I could "see" my energy mixing with theirs... I would consciously radiate mine into theirs. Then they would smile at me and I would smile and walk by.
I know this sounds crazy but it is not much different than when you walk into a room where the air feel tense, or you feel a connection with someone across the room. Energy is all around us; we send it, we receive it, we mix it and we attract it. It is everywhere. It is what keeps us connected and pushes us away.
I began to pick out my tutu as I picked out my clothes in the morning. I learned that choosing your energy is best done first thing in the morning, before any negative can mix into yours easily.
Since that time my experience with energy has expanded. The tutu isn't there anymore ; ). It is now something I see on everyone, covering them like ivy on a beautiful building or a like an extra layer of us that surrounds our whole being.
I don't usually have to know what's going on in your day to know how you are feeling based on your energy. You can do the same. Have you ever felt someone's energy?
This is WHY it matters... if you have felt someone's energy, odds are YOUR energy can be felt too. That is what I refer to when I speak of sending love. I am sending MUCH love most of the time. That love is the energy I hope you feel. It radiates from me. It is how I would like to connect with every person and experience that I am grateful to have- with my love, my positive energy.
What energy are you sending? What energy do you want others to feel? What energy feels best on you? If you aren't sure, ask yourself how people respond to you. How do others act around you? How do YOU feel?
Pick it out tomorrow morning, when you pick out your clothes. Put on the energy that feels the best and allows others to be affected by it. Allow YOURSELF to be affected by it.
From my tutu to yours... sending Much Love.
Today I wanted to share that the thought of tomorrow excites me. What excites me the most about tomorrow is that I am now certain- free of doubt- that my tomorrow is a product of today. This may seem like something you've heard before but I'm talking a bit more consciously ; )
You see, every day we wake with more time. Each day provides for us the opportunity to think, to act and to do- to create our life. What we do with that time directly and indirectly creates our world.
More and more people all over the globe are understanding and using this information to more consciously steer their lives in any way they can imagine it. You just have to be open enough to try.
Just try try and improve whats been bothering you. Just try to see past your current circumstances and begin to dream again. To dig inside and uncover the magic that has been inside of you the whole time.
I tried. I opened myself up to this idea... and then I began to FEEL
better. So then of course I did it more... I began using the affirmation, "I attract and am surrounded by like-minded people", even though 98% of the people in my life thought I was just nuts ; )
Looking back I can see how they thought I was nuts. For me though, it was the chance of something better that made it worth the risk of finding out if I was right or indeed, just nuts.
Let me tell you that magical things are happening. They've been happening all along but I was programmed to believe that magic and greatness were for someone else... someone maybe famous or ridiculously smart. The secret I have really learned is that it IS in you. It IS in me.
We each have the option to just try and believe or not to. If you don't its ok... you will not have to risk improving anything in your life or risk experiencing fabulous new opportunities... it can just keep going and going, headed in the direction it already has been steered in...but remember that today, right this minute, you are creating your tomorrow too, whether you try it or not. Much Love.
I have some exciting news to share. I feel it’s important to preface this
news with a somewhat abbreviated version of how it all happened… You see, this year has been an amazing
year and I wanted to pause and acknowledge how I got here because it is so directly
related to what I want to share.
Most of my adult life has been spent in the beauty
industry. I started as a
hairdresser and then high school teacher, adult school teacher, sales and
education coordinator for a beauty industry leader. I also have had experiences owning a title agency, working
in retail, being a closing agent and working in a school for children who are
deaf and hard of hearing.
My career experiences are as vast as my educational
ones. I started college in 1991
and feel as though I have been going ever since. I have been an elementary education major, English major,
English writing major, math major, and psychology major. I have proven “smart enough” to do
everything I have tried but I have lacked the passion that was needed for any
of it to be truly successful.
And then I had my daughter and my life changed. Everything I ever thought and
everything I ever knew changed. My
perspective on life and my role in it changed. It seems that at this point in my journey there was a massive
shift of energy. I had reached the
threshold of life as I knew it but was unaware of anything except trying to
adjust to that new role.
Before I was 2 years into motherhood, my daughter and I
found ourselves suddenly on our own, as the life we were comfortable living
came crashing down. I am one of
the very many people who found themselves without most of the comforts and
pleasures I had once enjoyed. I
lost my homes, my relationships, my work , my money, most of our things…
And it got worse.
Each and everyday for the following two years presented a challenge of
getting out of bed and making the best of it for my daughter. My goal was to protect her from seeing
my pain or noticing any of the seemingly devastating losses we had
suffered. I was aware that I was
creating her future, how she thought and felt and I wanted it to be fabulous
regardless of our new seemingly unfortunate circumstances. It was difficult to say the least, but
I made a conscious effort, everyday.
During that two -year period, I saw an episode of Oprah about The Secret. After
watching for 60 minutes, I still had no idea what it was. I didn’t think about it anymore until
months later at a friend’s house. The Secret DVD was in the pile of
potential movies for the evening. As
the movie played I felt as if I was the only one in the room. It was speaking directly to me; A
new prospective which brought an instantaneous shift in energy again.
My viewing of that movie triggered a chain of events. I bought the movie and played it every
time I was home (going to sleep, cleaning, cooking). It didn’t matter what I was doing, the movie made me feel
better. It gave me hope. It helped me to be open to my changed
world. It inspired me to find
something good in EVERY experience I had.
It was difficult to do, but I really didn’t have much choice. Things were bad. They were worse than I could ever have
imagined. But, I had nothing left
to lose and there was still a bit of hope in all of my despair, so I chose to
I began starting every single day telling my daughter how
beautiful the day was. We would
stand outside our rent-controlled apartment looking up to the clouds and say,
“Thank you for today. It’s a
beautiful day and I am grateful.”
I didn’t believe it at first but it became a habit. And I started to feel good. Things were still very bad but I was
I bought the audio CD’s for The Secret. I listened
ever time I was in the car. I made
a vision board, as did my daughter.
I told anyone about it that would listen. Most people thought I was nuts, some didn’t.
Upon feeling better I began to research why I was feeling better.
What was it in my brain that would allow me to feel better under such
bad circumstances? This question
led me to investigate the teachers in the movie that had impacted me so
drastically. That is when I
discovered Bill Harris and his program Holosync. I ordered and began listening to
his program. He can certainly
describe what it does much better than myself but I can tell you that it made
me aware of my brain. His program
introduced me to the relation between what we expose our brain to and the
direct affect it has on us. It was
fabulous! I immediately began
feeling really good. Nothing had
changed around me but I was feeling really good.
My experience with Holosync and my new understanding of how
the brain works led me again on a search of the power of our minds, which is
where I first saw some information on hypnosis. I was intrigued.
Not knowing much about it, I learned as much as I could including what
it takes, academically, to do hypnosis.
The first website I found regarding certification listed their class
schedule and I called. That
happened on a Wednesday. The first
class began that Saturday. I
didn’t know how I would pay or how I could make it work but I felt pulled in
that direction. It all happened so
quickly and easily that I felt I should see where it took me.
That Saturday I arrived early for the class and sat in my
car for 30minutes. I thought, “How
did I end up here and what am I thinking?” After quite a few deep breaths, I decided to go inside and
within 5 minutes knew it was exactly where I belonged. My life had shifted again. There was no way I could have ever seen
it coming, but it did and it was one of the most beautiful blessings I could
have ever received.
So with some additional certifications, and continuous study
of some of our most wonderful spiritual teachers, I continue my journey, now
filled with passion and purpose.
My intention is to share with whoever is ready, a new perspective. One
that helps guide them in the direction they wish to travel, doing it with
passion and purpose as well.
This past year I have worked with a public middle school
using guided relaxation and visualization to help increase student test
scores. I have performed hypnosis
on patients undergoing surgery in the operating room, I have traveled to speak
at a college, inspiring the students to pay attention to the most beautiful
tool we have- our brain. I have
worked with clients with physical pain, mental anguish and many trying to
overcome self-limiting beliefs.
Today I can say that all of this, every part has been a
gift. Very soon this website will
be changing as I will be announcing the birth of my most beautiful creation
(Izabella aside, of course). It is
a project that will inspire and change the lives of many people. My partners and I have combined our passion
and shared purpose of helping you find and believe the greatness inside of
you. You will find it. You will share it and we will all live
in Much Love.
Thank you for all that you have added to my moments. Whatever your input has been- big or
small, local or distant, good or bad- you have added to my life and I thank
I will be seeing you soon… Much Love.
As a master certified clinical hypnotherapist I have become an expert at visualizing, specifically when used during progression. I do this on myself, with clients and friends and most anyone interested.
During a session this past year, just a few months ago, I saw myself boarding a plane with my daughter. I noticed that we were both dressed very well and seemed to be going somewhere important. It felt good. I do progression pretty frequently and each time the images are so clear that I remember them without effort.
I mention this particular visualization because just a few days ago as I buckled my seat belt on a Continental Airlines flight, I realized I had done it… I manifested my experience. There I sat dressed in my suit with my daughter sitting next to me. We were flying from New Jersey to Florida where I was the scheduled guest speaker for a very fabulous freshman college class of 80 students.
I am very conscious of how we manifest. I work with people everyday on the subject. I have witnessed as I continue to shape my life into an endless journey of all things positive and real. I am in control of my thoughts. I am generating an overflow of positive vibrations, I am aware of each action I take (by either doing something or not) and I am loving the results I am creating.
I am grateful. I am radiating love and I am open to receive all that my mind can indeed conceive. I wish the same for you. Much Love.